Another life change

So much has happened since my last post almost a year ago. Alan went from driving for Covenant to driving flatbed for Maverick. Maverick is a WAY better company and although he still hates driving a truck, working for a decent company makes it more bearable.

My mom started seriously losing her battle with cancer back in November. She went into the hospital on Thanksgiving and never came back out. In December she went into hospice care and that's when I left North Carolina to be with her. She lasted three weeks in hospice and died on January 6. It was the worst three weeks of my life. I have never seen a person suffer so much pain and agony. Sad to say, her death was actually a relief. I miss her terribly.

I now have two grandchildren. Sarah Elizabeth was born on August 28, 2009 in Midlothian, VA. In December, Shane was assigned to Ft. Bragg in Fayetteville, NC and the family now lives in Sanford, NC. Shane leaves April 27 for Kuwait and will be there for a year. It will be his third time to go to the Middle East.

It has been no secret to my friends and family that I have been very unhappy for a very long time. I decided that something needed to be done and Alan had to go. Even though he is a very good man, it was a huge mistake to marry him because our relationship has bankrupted me. We got along well enough together but quite honestly we have absolutely nothing in common. I gave Alan the bad news a couple weeks ago and he took it just as I figured he would with a typical British stoicism. I felt terrible for him because he gave up everything to come to the US to be with me. That being said, I truly believe he is better off now without me because he has a good job and he's earning decent money. He doesn't have any major debts so he should be able to save up for either his own motor home or a house in France if he keeps working for as long as he can.

I quit paying my credit card debt over a couple years ago and am at a point where I can just make it on my own. Nothing to do now but move forward.

Always trying to think positive....